I never thought of myself as a troublemaker.Trouble just seems to have a way of finding me.I never thought of myself as a rule-breaker.Rules just don't always make sense to me.And I never thought of myself as a home-wrecker.It's not wrecking if it's already falling apart.
It's an indulgence.A guilty pleasure,a dirty secret,a temptation.Where is my self-restraint?Some self-respect,some self-regard,some self-worth.Think about the delayed consequences.See beyond the instant gratification.Indulgences are pretty distractions.Really pretty,sweet,delicious,comfortable,alluringdistractions.Stop indulging.
It was like sleeping with somebody you used to love.Somebody you used to call home.Somebody you tried to make home.And realizing you don't know them anymore.You don't need them anymore.You don't even want them anymore.It was like that.
Yesterday I went boating. It was a beautiful day to be out on the water.I love the water. Living in the city, I realized how much I missed the water because every time I flew in to West Palm, my eyes would be glued to the window so I didn't miss a second of the view [...]
Hey.It's been a while.It's been x days.I want to say,I hate to admit,I think about you.I think I miss you.Goddammit.
There's something about doing it by hand washing the dishes writing a letter keeping a planner that technology misses. There's something about physically touching it a book a map a face that helps me understand.
I felt inadequate in that world.I felt beautiful in his world.I felt rejectedI felt lovedfor a long time.for a little while.