I hate this weather.

I hate this weather.

It's a special wet cold that I find particularly dreary.The kind of day where I just want to sit around and watchthe new season of The Crownwith someone who loves me.And I got a bit of that.But I also got to walk home in the cold.Back to reality.There are parts of my reality that I'm [...]

Friends.

You ask me not to overthink it. You say we can be friends. You really believe that? You really want that. I don't have that kind of faith in us. You say I make it so black and white by trying to define it. But is that so bad? You want me to just let [...]

Welcome back.

Welcome back.

It feels so good to be in my own bed. The shitty wifi is a familiar discomfort. After being gone for so long, I almost forgot how much I missed my space. Opening my laptop is stressful. So many tabs open. I really should be mindful of tidying my digital space. When he encouraged me [...]

What’s worse?

Life with or without you? Is it worth denying a part of myself to indulge another? I don't think I'm capable of shutting down the part of me that feels so intensely. How would I turn it down? How do you do it? I'm realizing not everyone feels the way I do. So what's worse? [...]

Times gone by

Remember that time you were driving me home on a beautiful, warm, sunny day in April? You let me pick a song and it felt really intimate scrolling through your playlists. I was a little nervous to choose but I found one that was just right. We turned the volume up, rolled the windows down. [...]