I’m not the first person to have a day like today. A day that starts like any other day and then in an instant, reality shifts irrevocably.
I wish I wasn’t alone on a day like today. I wish someone was here sitting with me, holding me. I love being held. I want someone to run their fingers through my hair lightly, to scratch my back gently, to remind me everything will be ok. There’s something about a day like today that makes me crave that soft, sweet intimacy. I want so much of it that it obliterates this sadness.
But I’m not going to get that. I just have to deal with today on my own so that tomorrow will be better.