The kind of person

I never thought I’d be the kind of person who makes their own granola but here I am standing over the stove keeping a careful eye on this mixture so the sugar doesn’t burn because I don’t want to mess this up. I think I burnt the sugar last time. That or using dark brown sugar versus light brown sugar really does make a difference. I want to nail this batch so I can send it to a friend who is a pastry chef per a request that slipped into my DMs last month when I made this the first time. Alas, that first batch was WAY too salty. Like painfully salty but I ate it anyway. My second batch was not as good as I wanted it to be, not exactly sure what went wrong, so here we are going for a third attempt at nailing a simple granola recipe. I have two timers set. This should be foolproof.

I never thought I’d be the kind of person who wears Birkenstocks and drives a Subaru. I love driving. I love driving to wherever I’m going, listening to whatever song I’m playing. There’s always a view. It’s stupid pretty. I can’t help smiling and I feel gratitude wash over me. The world feels vast, there’s so much open space, you can see so much of that beautifully blue sky. That alone is a reason to never go back to New York. It’s a whole different world in so many different ways and I’m ok with that because I don’t want things the way they were. Something was off. Things feel better now.

I never thought I’d be the kind of person who falls back on law school but I didn’t have many thoughts about what life beyond theatre would look like. I realize it can look like whatever I want because I have privileges that until recently I took for granted or didn’t want to admit. I’m watching a series that I think I’ve been afraid of because the little bit I’ve heard of the story is painful but actually seeing it acted out is gut-wrenching. I can’t believe this claims to be the greatest country in the world yet we ripped innocent children out of their lives and threw them behind bars for a crime they clearly did not do. The whole thing was rigged. It’s disgusting. The system is broken across so many sectors. There are big problems that need big change. I know the world has enough lawyers but the world had enough actors too and I did that so let’s see where this idea goes. It still feels far off and the studying is not easy.

But I’ve always been the kind of person who loves a challenge.

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