Punctuation.

I abandoned a conversation with someone today because his punctuation was driving me crazy. What about you??? The way he punctuated his responses annoyed me. God how ridiculous am I? This mom I babysat for did the same thing. Thank you!!!!! Nobody is that excited about anything. What a lame reason to ghost someone. What [...]

What I said

Thinking about what I saidwhen life looked and felt completely different. When the world was a different place,I said always.That's what I said.That's what I thought should be.You and me.Always.And what now?Now that what I said isn't true.What I said feels like a dream.

City-girl

City-girl

I walked up a mountain this morning at the ass-crack of dawn. It was still dark when I started and I could see the stars and the moon. It was as poetic as could be except for the large groups of people yick-yacking away, disturbing the early mountain-morning soundscape. But eventually I put enough distance [...]

The kind of person

I never thought I'd be the kind of person who makes their own granola but here I am standing over the stove keeping a careful eye on this mixture so the sugar doesn't burn because I don't want to mess this up. I think I burnt the sugar last time. That or using dark brown [...]

Trust

I don't know if I trust myself. Is that bad? Do I need to be more sure of myself? Is that the secret? I'm skeptical. I know certain things about myself. I know I haven't always been trustworthy. I trust that I can't be trusted all the time. Can anyone be trusted like that? Do [...]

Already forgotten

Already forgotten

Learning about the death of someone you used to know is not the way anyone wants to wake up. Alas. I haven't thought about this person in years. How many lifetimes ago was that? This is a thing I'm noticing about getting old. The older I get, the more death I encounter. Is death something [...]

Words

Do words really have any value? They don't last. It's too easy to redact old ones, to take something nice and turn it gross. It turns out, all those things I said with you, to you, about you, were lies. You thought I was sincere but I never meant any of it. Words can hurt. [...]

Learning

There are some things I will never know. There is some pain I will never understand, that I can't even begin to imagine. It's hard to look at what's happening.I'm learning there are things I have not wanted to see. I don't understand how people can treat each other this way. I'm scared. I'm sad. [...]

If I saw you now

I wonder what it would be like if I saw you now. I wonder how it would feel to see your face. The thought isn't unpleasant.Does attraction ever completely fade?Depends. I don't think it would be like it was but I think it would be there to some degree. How can it not? I think [...]