Looking in the mirror

I wondered what was it about me that was so attractive to him?Was it my hair?I've said my hair is my best feature.Dark, thick, wavy and slightly unruly.Greying ever-so-quickly.It's getting long again.Was it my eyes?I never thought my eyes were anything stellarbut they always tell my truth.They give away my thoughts.Maybe only some people can [...]

A hot bath

A hot bath

I drew a hot bath tonight. One of my favorite simple pleasures. I used the last of my Epsom salt and added a few dashes of tea tree oil. So fancy. I poured myself a drink. A rye whiskey neat. The choice surprised me too but after I took that first sip, I knew it [...]

Who you are

I don't understand who you are. I'm trying. You can't say I'm not trying. Well actually, I guess you can say whatever you want. I'm saying I'm trying. I'm trying to navigate these uncomfortable situations where you make me feel like shit. Do you even realize when you're doing it? You don't want to hear [...]

Receipts

I went through a bunch of old receipts in my wallet. They're all from the last few months and they all have a set of memories attached. There's one from that art museum. I lied and said I was a student. I never would've remembered that if it weren't for the receipt. It's an insignificant [...]

A weird time

A weird time

It's a weird time. The normal order of things has been completely disrupted by a virus that has proven to be impossible to contain. It's been 3 weeks since I left New York. It feels weird. Society is on pause but life marches on. What am I going to do with all this time? All [...]

Rage

Where does it come from? Is it the byproduct of toxic masculinity? What is this rage that you carry around inside you? The thing that I'm so conscious of not provoking because even in the smallest amounts, it's not pleasant. What is your deal? Why are you so quick to let it out around me? [...]

Thinking back

I never thought this is where I'd be. I never could have predicted that this is where the world would be. Thinking back on these past few weeks and it amazes me how much has changed. That's what happens when the world is upended by a viral pandemic. This is unlike anything I've seen before. [...]